Ever Changing WorldThere was an accident, a car crash, involving my family that happened this evening. My uncle, who is a blood relative, survived, but is in critical condition, but my aunt, who was not of blood relation, but still family, did not. I found out when I got home from work this evening, it was not the news I expected to hear. It caught me completely off guard.
I cannot say much for my aunt, she was a nice person on the surface and I think deeply in her heart as well, but her addiction to drugs caused her to not always be the kindest of people. Most of the memories I have of her are of her yelling and screaming at either my uncle or my cousin, despite that fact, she was still my aunt.
She and my uncle have not been getting along for years and were considering divorce... but they procrastinated. They had an argument in the car while driving, which resulted in the crash.
At this moment, all I can think about is that she will no longer be here. It's a strange thought, that one moment they are standing beside you and then in a second, they are gone. But despite that, I have not shed any tears for my aunt, and that thought puzzles me. I will miss her, I would have hoped for better for her... I would have liked to see her clean up her life and live happily, but after her many suicide attempts... I don't think that was possible. I suppose you could say she got her wish, but I bet she never wanted to go like this. I don't really believe she wanted to die at all, she was just crying for help but didn't know how to say it.
What can you say about the dead? I will miss them, I wish I could have shared more with them, hope they are in a better place... but that is all. My major concern is for those left behind. I believe that things happen for a reason... my uncle's family has been begging for change, and now that this has happened, change will come... My only hope is that this change is for the positive. I wish for my cousins, especially my aunt's oldest daughter to not blame herslef for the bad relationship she held onto with my aunt until this last hour... I wish them all to be happy... I wish my uncle to safely recover, physically, mentally, emotionally. I hope that through my aunt's passing, he will learn to live better than he has, to learn that every minute of life is precious and as every minute goes by there is one minute less for you to enjoy the pleasures of this world, whether it is appreciating the blue sky, playing games with your children, or laughing with friends... I hope he learns to appreciate these things... I know I have.
At the moment my mind is filled with little more than millions of swirling thoughts... but I have learned this much at least. With every turn of life, whether for good or bad, I always try to learn something from the situation. The lesson? Live life to the fullest, for you never know when what you cherish most will come to an end.
Seifer
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When one of my family has died, I was young. My last moments was going to see my grandmother for one last time at the hospital before going to school. I thought then that I knew and can cope. But being in the fourth grade while being in a funeral just shows how I couldn't understand it when I didn't cry to the heavens, while my mother and her sisters did. I felt the loneliness of not having her around the house, always there since I was born. And shortly, it would be a couple years later when another has joined her from a heart attack that led to a stroke. I had not been close to my grandfather, and by then I was just in junior high school. Likewise, I didn't cry at the funeral or even before when he was lying in the hospital.
And yet, soon, the heavy feeling in my heart from both their deaths, and the unsaid regrets because I wish to connect with them more and not blame it on language barrier, would finally break me down. Quite recently, actually. And it would be then, in my dreams, that I would cry my heart out for them.
Anyway, what I wish to say is, that now, when your thoughts are broken apart like a puzzle from those mind-blowing news, it would be hard to know what you felt then. Yet, when finally the puzzle starts to assemble, then maybe those feelings would be let out. In regret, or sorrow, or just for the sake of crying, it might take time to let it out. And when those feelings have emptied out for now, then it would be a little easier to finish the puzzle and look ahead. The cracks are still there, but sometimes things would feel a little easier as time goes...
...And I'm kind of rambling now *sweatdrop* Especially from someone whom you don't really know. But I do feel how you are feeling, and I just felt like connecting that.
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"Never plan a relaxing day when your mother's having a bad one."
- Eli from my 1st period Theatre as a freshman
aliis licet, tibi non licet.
Translation: Everyone may do it, but not you.
fertur valla sub alaram trux nabitare caper.(?)
Latin insul
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Last Thursday a really great friend of mine got crushed by an 18 wheeler and ripped apart- she was crashed through her own shop- see, she was moving one store down, and was moving a table, and didn't see the 18 wheeler. The guy driving claims to have fallen asleep... The lady was a great friend of my family, and she was really kind of old- but what's sad is she didn't die right away.. She still had a pulse by the time the ambulance arrived (the hospital is 45 minutes away..)
This incident happened only about two blocks from my house. I went to her funeral, and it was so depressing, I really didn't know what to think. She was always so kind and told me and my friends how good it was that we were different. Wallis is such a tiny town- population only about 1,000, and there have been alot of odd deaths recently- little girl from my school kidnapped, murdered, thrown into the river near my house- stuff like that, but this one's the closest.
Ironic something similar just happened to you. It's a small world, get my drift? :hugs: I know you didn't ask for pity but I hope you feel better. You even made me feel better..
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It's weird... and hard. Every time I ride the bus to and from school, we pass what was once his house.
In the end, there's nothing you can do but offer a prayer for their souls, and move on.
Life doesn't seem fair. It probably isn't. Just gotta keep trucking away, spite the pains.
I wish your uncle and his family good luck.
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The “From now on” I saw in my dream,
Blurred, with the letter I could not write,
Only the darkness was kind,
Heart-breaking; I shut my eyes
---Yami ni Chiru Sakura - alice nine
hope all goes well for you and your family in the future.
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